The look of love

by DaniGirl on June 3, 2008 · 12 comments

in Baby days, Lucas

There are a lot of wonderful things about mothering a baby not quite four months old. It’s fascinating to watch his personality emerge, bright-eyed and curious and more than a little stubborn. (Fancy that! Who would have guessed it?) It’s equally fascinating to see him growing before my eyes, gaining folds and bursting through footie sleepers each time I blink. And the quest to make the baby laugh has turned into a competitive sport around here, with Beloved as the champion but closely followed by me and even the boys. Lucas loves to laugh, and often at the simplest of gestures.

Considering he’s not quite four months old, he has a pretty impressive arsenal of communication tools. He coos up a storm, talking happily to himself or his hands. He cries with an impressive bellow, and it melts my heart when he sees me coming to give him the attention he is demanding and immediately smiles through his tears. And I had forgotten how much I love the “stick out your tongue” game. I remember playing this with Tristan if not Simon, but Lucas seems to be the champion, and I’m still astonished that it’s a game that can be played with such a young baby. If you stick out your tongue at him, he immediately sticks his tongue back out at you. He’s become so adept at this that it’s become a bit of a salute; when he knows he has your attention, out comes the little pink tongue in a drooley greeting. It’s clear from the sparkle of delighted accomplishment in his eyes that the exchange is intentional, and understood by him as such. I don’t remember how long this phase lasts, but I hope it’s quite a while!

But my very favourite part of mothering this lovely little boy of mine who still wants to be held all of his waking hours and many of his sleeping ones as well? It’s the look, that adoring, worshipful gaze he bestows upon me when I least expect it. He studies my features with intense concentration, as if burning each freckle into his newly-firing synapses, and then a smile sweeps over his dewy face like sunshine on a summer day, and I truly fear my heart might burst. All the injustices of the world are forgiven, all the wrongs are righted, and the universe is a place of blissful joy when I am bathed by the glow of that loving gaze.

How can anyone ever recover from such love? In all my long years of being loved, and I am lucky to say I’ve been loved by the best, nobody has loved me with the shining and silent adoration of my four-month-old son.

Lucas

{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Cait June 3, 2008 at 7:54 am

Beautiful post Dani. And beautiful smiley little beanie!

2 snackmommy2 June 3, 2008 at 8:43 am

What a lovely little love letter.

3 Chantal June 3, 2008 at 8:48 am

That is so sweet!

4 Theresa June 3, 2008 at 10:22 am

oh my…. you are going to cherish this post! Make sure to read it when he’s driving you up the wall!!

He’s soooo cute!!!

5 Steph June 3, 2008 at 10:28 am

I love to read posts like this, make me wish I had started blogging whenthe kids were little.

6 Lee June 3, 2008 at 3:18 pm

Lovely post!

I can’t get enough of photos like that. Keep ’em coming!

7 smothermother June 4, 2008 at 6:31 am

what a beautiful post.

8 suze June 4, 2008 at 7:57 am

He is a gorgeous little guy. And this was a beautiful post.

9 JoJo June 4, 2008 at 1:33 pm

Seriously? Could he melt me more?

And I saw you were looking for an exersaucer. I have an extra if you want it!

10 Reluctant Housewife June 5, 2008 at 6:52 pm

What a bundle of joy. He has such a sweet smile.

11 Sharon June 9, 2008 at 9:11 pm

How could not feel love with that face? Your one lucky lady Dani!

12 nancy June 10, 2008 at 7:52 pm

I am most belated with blog reading, but THIS picture certainly caught my eye!!

xo

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