Itâ€™s been about six months since I published a blog post, and in the year before that I only posted a handful of times. Iâ€™ve been wondering: is it time to shutter the blog? The kids are too old for me to write about them now; their stories are their own to tell. I used to summarize the theme of the blog as â€œraising a family in Ottawaâ€ but I feel like the lionâ€™s share of that work is done. And while photos have sustained the blog for the last few years, I donâ€™t feel like I have enough to say about taking them anymore, at least not enough to keep the blog interesting and relevant.
So, is there value in me blogging any more? Thereâ€™s a cost to consider. Itâ€™s not overly expensive to host the blog, and I host my photography site off the same domain, so that’s not going anywhere. More problematically, itâ€™s been a while since I updated the look and especially the functionality. Google tells me itâ€™s not particularly mobile friendly. I canâ€™t even remember half the ways I hacked the code over the years and my eyes glaze over every time I think of making any changes to it. And now Flickr has a new model where the thousands upon thousands of images that I had hosted for free going way back to 2005 will now cost about a hundred bucks a year to keep, or else Iâ€™ll have a blog riddled with broken links and lost images.
Turning 50 has been a big year for me, and I have new things that Iâ€™m interested in now. Iâ€™d like to blog about my new knitting addiction (make all the things!) and Iâ€™ve been exploring Tarot cards. Iâ€™d like to have a place to talk about the food Iâ€™ve enjoyed making, the ways Iâ€™m expressing my creativity through making things, and how satisfying it is to be a woman on the far side of 50 who has figured out so many of the very same things I whined about when blog and I were both younger and less sure of ourselves.
I donâ€™t even particularly mind that Iâ€™m likely to be talking to myself. The heyday of the blog, a dozen years ago when Lucas was the Player to be Named Later and I was up to my ears and sinking in the quagmire of parenting three under six with a tribe of online friends and followers has long since passed. I donâ€™t mind talking to myself â€“ I do it all the time! I’m just not sure if I’m invested enough in the idea of continuing to do the kind of updates and maintenance that I really should do. Oh technology.
I guess Iâ€™m not quite ready to say goodbye, or even see you later. Maybe Iâ€™ll just putter around here for a while, without any pressure or expectations from myself, and if I decide I’m going to keep on keeping on, one day when I’m full of energy and enthusiasm I’ll look into overhauling the works. If a girl can grow and change and mature, her silly old blog can follow suit, right?