Project 365: STOP winter now!

Gah, I am so. sick. of. winter. So sick of snow, cold, wind — and the forecast is calling for three dumps of snow in the next three days.

That’s what I had in mind when I took this picture — STOP winter NOW! (I like this because it’s selective colouring but without the post-processing. I didn’t do much to this image except to tweak the exposure a bit.)

46:365 STOP winter now!

On the opposite end of the spectrum, here’s some soft and fuzzy and fresh from a warm bath to warm you up!

44:365 After his bath

One of these days, I’m going to get around to writing the post that’s rattling around in my head about how we’ve started going to church now. Not every week, but every couple of weeks at least. I like our new church and Father Dan, and I really like these gorgeous sacred candles. I hope it wasn’t disrespectful of me to snap this, but I couldn’t resist the colours.

45:365 Light a candle

I took this one with my iPhone one night as the sun was setting (thus the bit of orangey-pink in the bottom right corner). I tweaked the colour of the sky to that turquoise colour with an app called FX Photo Studio. I wish I had a better telephoto to bring that crescent moon a little closer!

48:365 Moon shot

Yesterday was the 100th day of school, and the kids were doing special projects. Simon had the number 42 and was gluing 42 mini-marshmallows to it while I made Douglas Adams jokes that sailed clear over their heads. (Tell me somebody gets that reference?) Anyway, I loved the almost straight-on side light and the shadows, so I caught this picture.

49:365 Forty-two

Rather unfortunately, while I was busy uploading this to the computer, the toddler tyrant precocious preschooler got into it and ate his gluey way from 42 down to 37 marshmallows before anybody noticed!

And speaking of the precocious preschooler, here’s a couple of shots from his birthday last Tuesday.

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47:365 Scenes from a birthday (1 of 4)

Damn cute, isn’t he?

This is how they grow up, quietly and quickly and right under your watchful eye

I am standing at the fence as I do every day, waiting for the bell to ring and the tsunami of energetic children to come spilling out of the school. I brace myself, as I do every day, for Simon’s enthusiastic hug that will one day knock me clear off my feet. Tristan too still hugs me, but in a more reserved and shy way that leads me to believe that while third graders still bestow public hugs upon parents, I’d best be prepared in case fourth graders do not.

We’re headed toward the car together when Tristan stops. “Mom, can I walk home by myself?” he asks. We’ve talked about this a few times before. We live exactly 0.9 km away from the school, down one reasonably quiet and safe street with a sidewalk and two very quiet streets with no sidewalks. We’ve walked it together on many occasions, and I know Tristan prefers to walk. Most days, however, we have to drive as I make it to the school from work with barely a few minutes to spare, and we still have to drive over to pick up Lucas from daycare a couple of blocks in the opposite direction.

I take a searching look at his face, weighing in my mind the walk, the traffic, the buses, the snow, his relative trustworthiness, how long it will take me to pick up Lucas and make it home, and my mother’s reaction if and when she ever hears that I’d let him walk by himself. Another part of my mind is busy admiring the fat snowflakes caught in his gorgeous eyelashes and how his gray-green eyes mimic the stormy clouds above us. He looks so grown up to me in that heartbeat of a minute, pleading his case not with words but by simply returning my gaze. It’s the briefest of exchanges, and yet it resonates with me as a milestone in progress. I can trust him or not, trust the world or not. The choice is mine.

“Are you sure you know the way?” I ask. I make him describe it to me, each corner and turn. We’ve walked it a dozen times and driven it a hundred — I’m pretty sure we could both do it blindfolded. I briefly wonder if we should ponder this more, hold a family council and debate the pros and cons, but in this moment I trust my instincts and acquiesce.

“Okay, but you go straight home,” I tell him. “And if you get lost, I want you to step back from the road and just sit down on someone’s lawn, okay? No wandering around. If you make a wrong turn, stop moving and I will come and find you.” It’s less than a 10 minute walk with three intersections. There is really so little chance of him being lost that I can only laugh at myself and the lasting impressions of the time I got lost the first time I walked home by myself from a new school back in 1975. Remember that one, Mom?

As expected, Simon also wants a piece of the deal once it’s brokered, but I’m having none of that. First, being older must come with some privileges, and second, I think walking home is enough of a test without being responsible for minding your little brother at the same time. Simon, who generally prefers driving to school over walking anyway, is easily persuaded that walking alone is more of a second or third grade sort of activity.

As we pull out of the parking lot, I scan my rearview mirror for signs of Tristan and can see him bobbing along in the stream of children burbling down the sidewalk. It takes me only a few minutes to retrieve Lucas, and although respect all traffic laws regarding speed and full stops, I do forgo the usual end of day chat with his caregiver in my haste to pack him up and get him out.

We pass by the school, and I begin scanning the sidewalk and snowbanks for Tristan’s blue snowsuit and black watch cap. There’s no sign of him on the way home and as I pull in to the driveway I catch sight of him, swinging gently and patiently on the porch swing, with not even a self-satisfied grin on his face.

The next day when I meet them at the fence, I expect Tristan to ask to walk home by himself again. I’m secretly pleased when he does not. He may have trod a few more snowy footprints on the road to independence, but I’m glad he still knows I’ve got a warm car standing by for those most bitter and blustery days.

Four food-group meatloaf recipe

My friend Nancy sent me this recipe years ago, and I love it. LOVE it! It’s easy, it’s tasty, and it’s got all four food groups in it. What more could you ask of a humble meatloaf?

(I’ve become a bit of a snob about my ground beef lately, and have found that this dish tastes even better if you can get locally raised, sustainable and anti-antibiotic ground beef from your butcher, FWIW.)

meatloaf

Here’s what you need:

2 eggs
2/3 cup milk
3 slices bread
1/2 cup chopped onion (sweet is nice here)
1/2 cup shredded carrot
1 cup shredded cheddar
2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
1 1/2 pounds (675 grams) ground beef
1/2 cup ketchup or chili sauce or salsa
1/4 cup brown sugar
squirt of mustard

Mix the eggs and the milk in a big bowl. Tear the bread into small pieces, and stir into the milk/egg mix, beating until the bread disintegrates. Add the onion, carrot, cheese and mix. Add in the beef and mix some more. Pack it into a 9 x 5 loaf pan (mine is pyrex).

In a measuring cup or small bowl, mix brown sugar and mustard with ketchup or chili sauce or salsa or BBQ sauce or some combination of all four. Quantities are not really important for this bit, just mix up a sauce that’s yummy to you. Spread half of it over the top of the meatloaf, and reserve the rest.

Bake for 1 hr 15 mins at 350F. Let stand another 10 minutes when complete. Serve with reserved sauce for dipping. Yum!! We make baked sweet potato fries and garlic balsamic green beans on the side, or baked beans with a leafy salad. Did I mention yum??

A love letter to Lucas, Age 3

My sweet and silly Lucas, happy birthday to you!

37:365 Shiverfest at Lucas

No longer the toddler tyrant my son, now you are a precocious and precious preschooler. Three years old! I can hardly believe it!

Lucas and me

You, my littlest one, are relentlessly curious and in that aggravating endearing phase of questioning everything. Everything. EV-ERY-THING. Who knew “why” could be a dirty word? And one question begets another begets another begets another. I would never have guessed that anyone could ever hope to challenge Simon as the most talkative member of our family! And you have learned, as Tristan observed just last weekend, that repetition is the key to attention. You have been known to ask the same question three, four, five times in a row, in the exact same tone and inflection, patiently waiting for someone to finally hear you and respond. Call it the curse of the third brother!

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You are finally a good sleeper, something I’m not sure I could say in your first or second birthday letters. And you are still, if not for much longer, sleeping in your crib! I’m sure your transition to a big-boy bed is mere weeks away, but congratulations to you for being the one who lasted longest of my three boys before achieving this milestone. I must admit, I will miss very much the sound of you calling out to me in your most sing-song voice when you wake up, “Mommy! Come and get me!” And I hope you never outgrow the ritual nighttime exchange with your Daddy, where on his way out the door he says, “Night-night Little One,” and you reply, “Night-night Big One.”

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Some of your favourite things are jigsaw puzzles, action figure toys like the Smurf village and Imaginext playsets, colouring and crafts, and anything your older brothers show the slightest interest in. Your favourite TV shows are, inexplicably, Max and Ruby, Caillou and In the Night Garden. And all three of you boys are deep in the midst of a Smurf obsession.

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You are gradually overcoming your earlier shyness, and you show signs of a romantic and jealous heart. You have a sweet and obvious crush on the 13 year old daughter of your daycare provider, but I think it’s safe to say the feeling is mutual. (It’s okay, though, your father has a thing for older women as well.)

484b:1000 Lucas loves daisies

You were once a hearty eater, but toddlerhood has made you fickle. Your favourite foods are yougurt, toast, egg whites and most fruits and vegetables. You’re less fond of certain family favourites like pizza and guacamole, but there’s time to rectify that yet. One of your favourite dinnertime rituals is the daily questioning of each member of the family: “How was you day, Mommy?” “How was you day, Simon?” “How was you day, Tristan?” “How was you day, Daddy?” And of course, the conversation may not progress until someone has asked you the same in return.

25:365 One for you and one for me

You are smart beyond your years (observes your mother in a completely unbiased fashion). You have a wicked memory and can “read” board books to me verbatim after having heard them only a few times. You have also learned how to both entice your brothers to do your bidding and enrage them with just a few words or actions. I suppose that’s the nature of brothers!

449:1000 Yoshiback ride

You love music and you love to sing. Your favourite songs are Lukey’s Boat, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, You are my Sunshine, and K’naan’s Waving Flag. It’s beyond cute to hear you singing to yourself, as you play contentedly with your jigsaw puzzles or lie waiting for me to retrieve you from your crib, “When I get older, I will be stronger, they’ll call me freedom, just like a waving flag (And then it goes back, and then it goes back, and then it goes back, woa-oah-oh…).”

Into the ocean

Because you are the littlest, we tend to forget that you are, in fact, quite large for your age. While walking down the street one fine day last autumn, a stranger looked at you chasing your brothers and laughed. “He’s a big boy, that one,” said the stranger. “Better get him enrolled in football!” It’s only when we see you playing with other kids your age do we notice that you’re more the size of a four-year-old than a toddler — and you speak more clearly than some four-year-olds we know, too!

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You are the child of a thousand nicknames: Lukey, Luke, Lukey-Lou, Pookie, Pook, and yes, even Poo. I’m sorry about that last one. It was your brothers’ idea. Speaking of brothers, you’ve finally learned the difference between the two of them, but it charms me every time you refer to them as “the brudders”, as in “Mommy! The brudders won’t let me play with them!” Or “No, I didn’t do it, the brudders did it.”

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I could go on, my darling boy. You are funny, sweet, and altogether delightful. You love to joke and to indulge your old mum’s sense of humour. Our quiet Wednesdays together are one of the best days in my week. Could you please stay three forever?

499:1000 Watering Mad's flowers

Happy birthday, my handsome Lucas. I love you!

Project 365: Deep in the heart of winter

I‘ve heard that the last week of January and the first week of February are the dark heart of winter — the coldest weeks of the year. You can tell based on my pictures this week, featuring lots of cold and snow.

You saw this one of Lucas from Shiverfest already, but I liked it so much it was worth repeating!

37:365 Shiverfest at Lucas

I was driving past a little copse of woods at the south end of Merivale the morning after a night of lightly falling snow, and I had to stop and take a picture. I really liked the almost abstract quality and the monochrome feel to this.

36:365 Winter forest

And yes, more with the freshly fallen snow. This is the same old barn off Bankfield that I’ve photographed before, and I am completely enamoured of it. I swear I will keep taking snow pictures until I get one right!!

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What’s really nice is when you can take a nice winter picture through the open patio door from the warmth of the kitchen!!

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And speaking of the warmth of the kitchen… 😉 I have to tell you, I’m fighting very hard against my impulse to make him STOP mixing all the colours together like that.

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(Here’s a sanity-saving parenting tip for you: I carry three of those little mini-containers of playdoh, the size that you can hand out for Halloween, in my purse. Any time we have to wait somewhere — doctor’s office, restaurant, etc — I pull out the playdoh and all three boys are engaged and distracted for up to 20 minutes. LOVE playdoh!)

A little mosaic of pictures from Simon’s party which you’ve also already seen, but what the heck:

38:365 Happy Birthday Simon!

This one was too cute not too share. Tristan lost an incisor and put it on the counter in a napkin — but forgot to mention it to me. While I was making dinner, I obliviously scooped up the napkin and its icky contents (give me snot or blood but I cannot handle wiggly teeth) and dumped them into the garbage. I told Tristan that the tooth fairy would likely accept a letter of explanation in lieu of an actual tooth, and this is what he wrote:

39:365 Dear Tooth Fairy

So do you remember how I agonized about getting the boys their first hand-held video game? How we only capitulated last summer before the big road trip to Nova Scotia, when they were six and eight, and even then I thought we were on the border of too early?

Yeah.

And this is the not-quite-three-year-old playing Angry Birds on the iTouch with Beloved.

43:365 Beloved and Lucas playing Angry Birds

And inevitably, a few moments later:

iTouch bonding - after

Sigh. (Nice light, though, eh? ;))

And finally, a 365 tradition that I nearly forgot about — the monthly mosaic for January. Just in case you missed some of these the first five or six times. 😉

365 Monthly Mosaic - January

Off to a pretty good start on the year, no?

On photos and covetousness and social media success stories

While I love my camera and taking pictures, I’m not a huge gear junkie. I’m mostly happy with the four lenses I have, and the small bag of accessories. I have the kit lens, which I use when I know I’ll need a wider angle and for TtV. I have a telephoto zoom, so I can get in close from a distance. I have a 50 mm f1.8 that I wanted because the kit lens only opens up to f4.5 and I’m a fan of a very narrow depth of field, and I have a 35 mm f1.8 because I got a great deal on it second hand and it will autofocus on my D40 while the fiddy will not.

This is pretty much enough of a lens repertoire for me, with one small exception. I really, really (no, really!) want a Lensbaby Composer. You know how I said I like a really shallow depth of field? The Lensbaby line of lenses goes one further than that, giving you a ‘sweet spot’ of focus while distorting rest of the image. The more you stop down, the larger the sweet spot. It produces fun, dreamy images with amazing bokeh.

Since I don’t yet have a Lensbaby of my own to play with (yet?) I’ve had to borrow some amazing Lensbaby shots from the talented Ms Angela Auclair of “From the Dock” fame. 😉 Here’s what a Lensbaby can do in the hands of a talented photographer:

the tick

my cornwall

Gone, and a cloud in my heart.

Aren’t they just breathtaking images? So yes, the Lensbaby and a D90 are the only two things left on the list of gear I covet.

I like Lensbaby so much that I follow them on Twitter. Every now and then they have giveaways, and I was super excited to see earlier this week that they were sponsoring a winter photography contest with @plywerk, offering a chance to win a Lensbaby Scout.

Now, if you’re Canadian like me, you know what it’s like. Whenever you see a contest or a giveaway, you know you have to go straight to the eligibility rules, and more than half the time you’re out of luck — contest is open to USA residents only. Sigh. It’s tough living under the shadow of the giant who is oblivious to you! I’ve had to pass on more than a few excellent blog promos that were open to US residents only, and you could say I’m a little sensitive to the issue.

So when I read that the winter photography contest was open only to residents of the 50 United States — seriously, who knows winter photography better than us Canadians?! — I sent a quick reply via Twitter saying that I was disappointed that I couldn’t apply. And guess what? Less than 24 hours later, Lensbaby replied to me and said they had reconsidered, and the contest is now open to everyone.

How awesome is that? I’m so chuffed that Lensbaby and Plywerk opened up their contest that I thought they deserved props for it here. I love it when companies actually *listen*!!

So now I have to choose a winter photograph to submit. Oh the angst! And by the way, none of you talented photographers out there are allowed to submit an entry to this contest — I can’t stand the competition!! 😉

Edited to add: awwww, and lookit Angela’s reply. It’s a bloggy love-fest!

Six years ago today: My first blog post

Six years ago today, on February 2, 2005, I wrote my very first-ever blog post:

Okay, so I’ve been reading about blogs for quite some time now. At first, the idea was quaintly geeky, which of course immediately appealed to me. But aside from generally knowing what they were, and stumbling across a few here and there, I never really realized what a universe unto themselves blogs have become.

So I started really thinking about it. To blog or not to blog? Note the insecurity in each of the questions I pondered: Am I funny enough to blog? (because if I don’t have humour then I don’t really have anything at all.) Does anyone really care what I have to say? What would I talk about? What if nobody reads my blog? What if somebody reads my blog? And the real biggie: do I have the resources to commit to a blog right now? Well, the last one is the only one I can answer right now. Since I’m back at work for the first time in a year, I can at least probably find an hour or so a week (on my lunch hour, bien sûr!) For the record, it took me about 15 alt+ combinations before I could get that û accent right.

If I could just type instead of editing and playing and getting lost in the friggin’ thesaurus I could probably do this in about half the time. If I only had an attention span…

So what would I blog about? Well, my kids of course. What else is there of significance in my universe? So does the world really need another soccer-mom wanna-be sending dispatches from suburbia, trying to strike a voice somewhere between Erma Bombeck, Jerry Seinfeld and Bill Cosby, but in the 21st century, not Jewish, not male and not black? And potentially not really funny?

Well, why the hell not?

So here we go. I’m so self-conscious as I type away, wondering if you are rolling your eyes at me or thinking cruel thoughts about my writing skills or (worst of all) have completely lost interest and have not even made it this far. What if I install a hit counter and I have to spend all my free time hitting refresh so it looks like somebody is reading my blog?

So, are you still reading? Should I publish this, or banish it to bad-idea heaven?

Ah, what the hell. Here we go!

I’m both charmed and, truth be told, vaguely disturbed at how little has changed. Still toe-in-the-carpet insecure, still unable to complete a thought without interrupting myself, still chasing that precious laugh.

Fast forward six years, 1,870 posts, 24,701 comments and nearly (eek!) half a million page views. I couldn’t even guess how many words I’ve plowed through, nor how many hours (days? weeks??) I’ve spent here glued to my keyboard instead of doing some *real* work like scrubbing sink grout or alphabetizing my soup cans.

And yet, I will freely admit, the blog is one of the best gifts I’ve ever given myself. If I could fly back through time and tell 2005 me of the crazy ride I was about to launch, never in a million years would I have believed me. And you, my bloggy peeps, are at the heart of it all. You make it all worthwhile!

So, are you still reading? 😉

Survivor Redemption Island

Did you catch the commercial this week promoting the new season of Survivor? It’s Boston Rob versus Russell! And I guffawed out loud at Jeff Probst’s observation, “I’m gonna need a bigger torch!”

Apparently, there’s a new twist to the game in this 22nd iteration:

On Survivor: Redemption Island, which premieres Feb. 16 on CBS, when a contestant is voted off, he or she won’t leave the game completely but go instead to Redemption Island, where he or she will face off against the next person voted off in a duel. The winner lives on to face the next arrival at Redemption Island until one person left standing has a chance to return to the game.

(Historic moment, peeps — that may be the first time in six years of blogging that I’ve ever quoted from People magazine!)

Boston Rob is on his, what, fourth or fifth season now, but I’m still looking forward to this. I still think Russell was robbed in Survivor Samoa and totally should have won the million bucks.

I’ve also heard that they’ve adapted the rules to give discretionary power to send someone directly home rather than keeping them around for the jury, after NaOnka and Kelly S quit Survivor Nicaragua. They should not have been allowed to stay as jury members, IMHO.

I just wish they’d move Survivor back to Thursday night where it belongs. After 10 years of habit, it’s messing with the flow of my week to have it on Wednesday nights!

Yay, Survivor is (almost) back!

Edited to add: oooh, and this one is also good. It’s from the CBS website, though, and you have to sit through a 20 second commercial (sigh) first.