Small victories

by DaniGirl on November 27, 2006 · 6 comments

in It IS all about me, Loss

Much to my relief, not only did I manage to do up my fat jeans today, but I wore them all day.

It’s amazing what a relief that is.

And, I haven’t cried since Friday. Well, there was one weepy moment during a Christmas song, but that’s not unusual for me at the best of times.

Even though I went in to work on Tuesday, it was such an out-of-routine day (I spent most of it at a conference) that I hardly feel like I was at work at all last week. I finally feel ready to face everyone again, to accept condolences and kindness in person. It’s one of the hardest parts, and it’s so much easier to do when it’s mediated through the computer. Maybe I can just ask everyone to e-mail their condolences to me?

Thanks again for your comments, your virtual hugs, and your support. I’m not sure I could have said to any one person any of the things I’ve been able to say here, and being able to express my sadness and frustration and loss without immediately trying to reassure someone that I’m fine has been amazingly cathartic.


{ 6 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Renee November 27, 2006 at 4:45 pm

Glad to hear you’re feeling a little better emotionally, Dani. I’m still thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way.

2 Renee November 27, 2006 at 4:45 pm

Glad to hear you’re feeling a little better emotionally, Dani. I’m still thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way.

3 Ingrid November 27, 2006 at 7:53 pm

Glad to see that your spirits are moving onward and upward; although you’ll never forget this baby and there will be moments of sadness, it’s good to see your optimism bouncing back.

4 Ingrid November 27, 2006 at 7:53 pm

Glad to see that your spirits are moving onward and upward; although you’ll never forget this baby and there will be moments of sadness, it’s good to see your optimism bouncing back.

5 liz November 28, 2006 at 1:11 am

Hugs. And plenty more where they came from.

6 liz November 28, 2006 at 1:11 am

Hugs. And plenty more where they came from.

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