A day off

by DaniGirl on March 31, 2005 · 3 comments

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I took a sick day yesterday. The boys had me up at 4:30 am, and the sleep deprivation coupled with the low-grade migraine that has been dogging me since the weekend pushed me over the edge. I checked my mental calendar, realized I had no meetings scheduled at work nor nothing that couldn’t wait for a day, agonized for another 30 minutes – going to far as to turn on the shower and turn it off again in my indecision – before finally giving up and calling in. (Digression: I hate calling in sick – the actual placing of the call, I mean. On days when I am very sick and have decided in the middle of the night to call in the next morning, my dreams in the wee hours of the morning often revolve around me forgetting to call in and coming to some unfortunate end because of it.)

Having decided to take the day off work, the next dilemma was whether to keep one, or both, of the boys home from daycare. I know Tristan loves his friends and the daycare provider, so I wasn’t really too worried about him. But Simon is still having a few transitional issues and rarely naps well when he’s with Bobbie (the daycare provider). After obsessing just a little too much about it, and hashing it out with Beloved (who was completely perplexed by my desire to keep Simon home) I decided to send both boys and spend the day by myself.

What place have I come to in my life that taking a sick day – one where I’m actually sick! – seems like I’m getting away with something, like I’m somehow cheating the system? It’s the first time since Simon was born that I could actually indulge in feeling like crap, and not have to worry about taking care of someone else at the same time. I think that was the very hardest part of being a stay-at-home mom for the year or so I was home – there is nowhere to hide when you’re really sick, and you can’t just put the baby in the garage for a couple of hours while you nap and take a long shower and lie moaning pathetically on the couch. (No, I am not good with being sick. It’s not pretty.)

So I took my nap, and my long shower. I walked up to the store for my favourite migraine relief – plain chips and coke (I don’t know why, but it works.) Then I picked up the toys, did some laundry, cleaned up the kitchen and got the garbage ready for the curb. I hung up the clothes that had been piling up on the chair, vacuumed the main floor and sorted through some unopened mail from a week (or two?) ago. By the time I was walking over to the daycare provider’s to pick up the boys, I was feeling much better. But I was feeling GUILTY for not having done more. Sheesh, I was thinking, home for a full day with nobody around, and that’s all I managed to do? Again, I am wondering what place I have come to in my life when I have a (self-imposed) to-do list on a sick day and why I feel guilty when I don’t get through it. I used to be much lazier. I miss those days!

{ 3 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Suzanne March 31, 2005 at 2:17 pm

Yes, yes, yes! Each time I chose to stay home sick and send my kids to my sister’s (she is their daycare provider), I felt horribly guilty the entire day. Even if, like you, I was productive and not just moping about, I still felt that I was shortchanging both my kids and my work.
Now I’ll be facing the other problem with illness that you mentioned. When I’m staying at home, I’ll just have to suck it up even more, I guess!

2 SilverCreek Mom March 31, 2005 at 6:00 pm

What do you mean that’s all you did ON A SICK DAY! Heavens and to Besty girl! You should have eaten bon bons and watched Dr.Phil and to heck with the laundry and the toys and the whatever…It’s only gonna pile up again and you were under the weather. SHEESH…Ok I do protest too much, cause I do the same thing…BUT WE SHOULDN’T! Atleast youate the chip and the coke….the only good thing. šŸ˜‰

3 Nancy April 1, 2005 at 12:18 am

Firstly – kudos to you for taking a sick day when you needed it…Secondly – you just had to go mention chips & coke, didn’t you…hmph. Time for a snack! And yes, I just finished dinner 90 minutes ago.

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